ALONE

I am alone in a crowd,
Alone with my thoughts.

Frightened by desire,
Determined to be true to myself.
Made promises, I must keep.
Frightened by the want to break them.

In this through away world,
Should I give in?
Add to it?
Must be true to my self

Great pain has come from Even greater Joy,
Ecstasy, Passion, Union, Oneness, Spiritual, events.
Is this the great zen hurah?
or my own stupidly, or stubbornness
Regret will be all I have left.